Koi with Lotus flower - original

Gesso board, 41cmX50cm - coloured pencil.


Why are Koi so mesmerizing? Why are people willing to pay thousands of Euro’s for a pretty ‘Agasi’, a blue Koi? I think I know now.

I sat next to a large pond with koi with beautiful colours and patterns. I looked at them and looked at them. I sat and sat and got mesmerized. Mindful I asked myself why I was I so intensely enjoying sitting next to this pond and looking at the slow and gently moving fish? Suddenly I understood. The pond with Koi had become my thinking. Each Koi represented one thought, a thought that lighted up against the dark, deep pond. Thought-fish swam in and out of my mind. The more the fish got used to me and I to them, the slower they appeared and disappeared. My whole thinking process became more a flow; it slowed down and became less demanding. I’d let my thoughts come and go while I was aware of their coming and going. Sitting by the pond and looking at the colourful, smooth swimming fish became a meditation. Has this meditation helped me to understand the obsession with Koi and the willingness to spend a monthly salary on a beautiful Agasi? Yes, I do understand now, but that doesn’t mean I became obsessed because that is a choice. However, I decided to draw a Koi-series to capture the meditation experience in coloured pencil drawings. Every time I look at my drawing I want to feel that meditation again. And I hope others feel it too while looking at my drawing. This meditation was years ago and I’m still drawing ponds with Koi.